What I ate before my diet started...

I am once again starting a diet and exercise regime on Monday so what did I manage to ate this last day before hell week...Long John Silvers (twice over the weekend no less) and almost an entire box of Little Debbie chocolate chip muffins (I ate two of them last night so I technically didn't eat the whole box in one day. I love technicalities!)

It's no wonder I need to go on a diet! The fear of hitting the big (no pun intended) 2 0 0 is what's driving me! I have never been over that without being pregnant so drastic times call for drastic measures. I am dangerously close that that danger zone. Normally I would never allude to being anywhere near that size but I can't hide from it anymore. Turning the other cheek (or double chin as the case may be) is what got me to this point.

I want to be healthier, to feel better. I want to have more energy to do more with my 3 year old. I don't want to me horrified when I look in the mirror or see pictures of myself. And of course I want to be more attractive too. I know Mr. Right should love me for who I am no matter what size I am but let's be honest, that isn't happening. And if I am honest with myself, I don't give larger men a chance so why would I expect a man to do it for me.

So, tomorrow is the dawn of a new day. I've got people at work to work out with so I really hope they help me stick with it. After the first few days, you are so drained that it's so easy to cop out. One day of copping out leads to another and another and before you know it, you never work out at all anymore. And you are embarrassed so you try to look really busy or make sure you don't leave your office when you know the others are working out so that you don't have to face them. It's a vicious cycle and it's stupid. Just work out! Just do it! It's not the end of the world. Eventually you do feel better for doing it. Just do it stupid! Oops - sorry lost in some inner dialogue there!!

Ok then, tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life! (I know, I know it's the first day of the rest of my life no matter if I diet or not but work with me here!)